For the One Who Doubts God’s Call {Linkup}

worthy or willing

I take deep breaths in and out, trying to calm the rapid pulse of my heart. It’s no use. My hands shake as I rummage through my purse for lip gloss, trying to silence the voices of defeat. Every five seconds, I look over my shoulder for my husband. Where is he?

When the worship band begins playing, I focus on the words.

Holy Spirit you are welcome here
Come flood this place and fill the atmosphere

Yes, God, yes. Your Spirit will get me through the next five minutes in front of a sea of faces.

I’ve committed to giving my testimony to our church congregation that morning, but as I watch person after person pour into the sanctuary, thoughts of self-doubt and defeat create an endless chatterbox in my mind. What was I thinking? I’m not a public speaker.

What if my story doesn’t resonate with people? What if my voice cracks and trembles?

I down an entire cup of water in between songs and look around for my husband again. He still isn’t there.

If I were a soldier, I would be the last person chosen to fight. But God doesn’t choose the worthy. He chooses the willing. Even when we stand in the face of doubt and timidity.

I’m reminded of the mighty warrior, Gideon, who isn’t so mighty the first time we see him. When an angel of the Lord appears to him, he doubts what the angel is telling him. When the angel gives him an assignment, he doubts his ability to do it.

At this point, surely the Lord will punish him or give the mission to someone else, right? One would think so. But that is not what God does. He is incredibly patient and understanding.

Gideon asks him not once, but three times, for assurance that his charge will be successful. Instead of becoming angry or frustrated, God fulfills every request.

Then Gideon said to God,

Do not be angry with me. Let me make just one more request. Allow me one more test with the fleece…That night God did so. Judges 6:39 NIV (emphasis mine)

Gideon goes on to defeat an army that is described as being, “as thick as locusts,” riding camels that “could no more be counted than the sand on the seashore.” Judges 7:12 NIV.

Not only does he defeat them, but he does it with an army of only three hundred men. Three hundred men against an uncountable number of men.

That Sunday, as I sat trembling in my chair, I faced an army. But the army was not in the physical realm. I faced arrows of discouragement, self-doubt, and nerves that threatened to destroy me.

Do you know what God did? When I stepped out in obedience, he exchanged each arrow with assurance that he was there. He gave me confidence when my husband finally came in and grabbed my hand. He gave me calm as I stood in front of the congregation and a brother in Christ nodded his approval.

With each “Amen,” and “Mmhmm,” my nervousness eased away. And I was reminded that we do not serve a God who is quick to anger or turn away when we doubt.

We serve a God who reaches out his hand in love and says, “I’ll go with you,” as his Spirit carries us through the fire.

Today, if the arrows of doubt won’t stop, will you come before the throne of grace and seek his mercy? He will not turn away in anger or shame you with disdain.

He will wrap his mighty arms around you and shield you with his grace.

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71 thoughts on “For the One Who Doubts God’s Call {Linkup}

  1. Good morning Abby,
    Your post this morning spoke to my heart…I have been having so many doubts lately and I have felt sure that God is disappointed that I’m doubting His calling on my life. Thanks for your reassurance that I am not alone…
    Blessings and ((hugs)),
    Bev

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  2. Love this post – I was in a similar situation this past weekend, but isn’t it amazing what God can do when we just step forward in obedience and trust and allow Him to work through us? I know I wasn’t the greatest speaker of the weekend, but God still worked through what I had to offer and I saw Him visibly at work in the room touching hearts. So glad you stepped forward and shared – just think what hearts God may have touched through your words that morning.

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    • It is amazing what he can do, Kathryn. My pastor called me later that afternoon and told me their church had the highest attendance they’d had since opening 2 years ago that day. What? I couldn’t believe it. Only God.

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  3. Abby, I love how you focused on God in your weak moment. He was so faithful to you. Way to post an awesome post for #RaRalinkup day! We are all inspired – no doubt – an encouraged. Much love to you Abby.

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  4. Beautiful! I am in a season of self-doubt and this reminder that God is near and His spirit is there to guide is so timely and so reassuring. “He will wrap His mighty arms around you and shield you with His grace” Amen! Blessed by your courage and transparency. Mary

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  5. Gideon is absolutely one of my favorite heroes of the Bible. Today my prayer for all of us is faith like Gideon’s! Blessings Abby:)

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    • I love him too, Kristine. I guess because I can relate. 😉 The Bible is full of unlike heroes, isn’t it? That’s what I love about it. Thank you for sharing here today.

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  6. Public speaking terrifies me. “Discouragement, self-doubt, and nerves” make up an army I fight often as well. Thank you for this beautiful encouragement, Abby!

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    • It terrifies me too, Candace. I wasn’t sure God was calling me to do it, I never would have gone through it it. He is so faithful, though. Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts here today.

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  7. Yes! Abby I celebrate your courage to move beyond doubt. In my Pastor’s New Year’s Eve message he asked the congregation what we need to give up moving into 2015 and the one thing that popped in my head was ‘doubt’. Your word today reminds me to leave doubt in my footprints as I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling.

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    • That is a wonderful choice on what to give up. I am working on it and have come a long way, but I’m still a work in progress. I’m so thankful he’s not finished with me yet! 😉 Blessings to you, friend.

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  8. Abby- Thank you for sharing this moment with us. Your imagery made my mouth dry and my hands tremble as I waited in the pew with you. Praise God that He provides everything we need to defeat our enemy… and praise God that you were able to share your testimony with your church family. These words of yours are going in my journal today: “We serve a God who reaches out his hand in love and says, “I’ll go with you,” as his Spirit carries us through the fire.” So true and so encouraging… I just need to remember. Thanks for reminding me so beautifully. Loved this!

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    • That dry mouth is the worst! No matter how much water you drink, those nerves just parch it completely dry. I’m so glad that the message resonated with you Karen. God is good. Much love to you, girl.

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  10. You are a mighty warrior, Abby! Thanks for this word today. I need it, particularly since I’m preparing to speak on Sunday. Willingness to do it afraid is what God is looking for. He does the rest, showing His power through our weak steps.

    (I agree with Karen, above. I could just see myself in your first paragraph!!!)

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    • I am praying for you as you speak this weekend, Betsy. I know God will be faithful and that his Spirit will work through you. You go, girl! So excited to hear how it goes. As always, thank you for your encouragement, dear friend. ❤

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  12. Abby, such an encouraging word! So glad you took courage & shared your story both then & now. Yours is the 2nd post I have read this morning which brought to mind this Scripture, “They overcame him Satan} by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony.” (Rev. 12:11) Our stories do matter. The enemy knows the power in the words spoken by those who tell their stories. Each one of us has a story needed to be heard by someone. Thank you for encouraging us all to tell ours! Blessings!

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    • I LOVE that verse, Joanne. So powerful. Yes, our enemy does know the power of our stories and wants us to keep our mouths shut. I’m so thankful that He who is in me is greater. Thanks so much for sharing today.

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  13. Bravo! Telling our story is always risky (what if they don’t like me/get bored/etc) and public speaking is something a lot of people fear; putting them together…well, that takes courage. And you got through it with affirmation from people who love you as well as God! Something I learned a long time ago when I first starting speaking in public was that no one wants to see you fail. In general, everyone in the audience is rooting for you! Praise God that you overcame yourself and told God’s story! And strangely, I was singing that very line in my head when I opened your post to read!

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    • Thank is so true, Mary. They don’t want to see you fail. Especially in a Christian audience. Thank you for reminding me of that today. I will certainly remember your encouraging words in the future.

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  14. I am speaking at an event in Feb and am having some freak out moments of my own lately. I really needed to hear this today. Thank you for allowing God to use you to bless me! I am sure it will bless many others as well. Great post Abby!

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    • I am so glad to hear it was a word you needed, Nicki. Praying that God uses your words to bless others in Feb. He goes with you! Thank you for your encouragement here.

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  16. I love to hear women say, “But do you know what God did.. he exchange this for this.” And in that moment, He was using your words to bring freedom, hope and blessing to others. Thanks for sharing the grace you found in obedience. Praying those seeds you planted with sprout faith blessings in others.
    Blessings!
    Dawn

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    • Me too, Dawn! God is in the business of exchanging our fears and insecurities for his blessing and power. I am so thankful we serve a God who turns our messy into beautiful.

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  17. God has been speaking to my heart about action. Doing things actively for Christ. The doubts do creep in, and I feel unworthy to do His work. Thank you for this Truth!!

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    • Me too, Dana. He’s been pushing me further and further outside my comfort zone, and he is always faithful. None of us are worthy and that is the beauty of it because he still uses us. Praying for his Spirit to fill you with bravery to step out into whatever he calls you to.

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  18. Oh, how beautiful Abby! I felt your heart racing, possibly because it scares me tremendously to speak in front of an audience. But God…when we step out in faith, and feel like we are falling, He will catch us in His merciful arms! Thank you Abby!

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    • Yes, God is so faithful. We have to take that step of obedience, but once we do he is always there to carry us through. Thanks so much for reading today, friend.

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  19. Good morning Abby! I found this post via #RaRaLinkup 🙂

    “If I were a soldier, I would be the last person chosen to fight. But God doesn’t choose the worthy. He chooses the willing. Even when we stand in the face of doubt and timidity.”

    This Truth resonated with me as I read through your blog post today. The Holy Spirit has been working a similar theme in my heart this week, as I struggle against the enemies fiery darts of comparison, self worth and doubt. Praise God for His grace and the Truth of scripture to combat it. Thank you for the reminder to look back to the cross for our strength. We are so richly blessed in Christ!

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    • Oh yes, comparison is a big one for me too. I am so glad you were encouraged by this post and I pray that God grows our confidence in him as we step out into all he has planned for us. Thanks so much for reading, Tina.

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    • Ruth, I was so blessed to host this. I’m grateful for each of you beautiful sisters in Christ. Thanks so much for linking up and for your encouraging words.

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  20. We serve a God who reaches out his hand in love and says, “I’ll go with you,” as his Spirit carries us through the fire.

    AMEN, Abby! We get our strength and courage from Him, obediently going forward even when scared or when lies strike our heart like arrows sharp. Thanks for sharing!

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    • Yes, Sheila. Sometimes it’s not until we take that step of obedience that we feel his peace and realize he’s right there. Thanks so much for sharing and commenting. Love this community!

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  21. “We serve a God who reaches out his hand in love and says, ‘I’ll go with you,’ as his Spirit carries us through the fire.” – What a great reminder that whatever I face God will be with me. Thank you for your encouraging words : )

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  22. Abby, I LOVED your post today.
    “If I were a soldier, I would be the last person chosen to fight. But God doesn’t choose the worthy. He chooses the willing” And those willing? They are soldiers…in the Army of God. You, my dear, are faithful with that testimony, and certainly there was someone who could relate and needed to hear it. Go God, go!

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    • Exactly, Kristi. Go God. He is so good and faithful. I am so encouraged by you, friend. Thank you so much for sharing today. And you know what? That Sunday was the highest attendance they’d had since opening two years ago. I couldn’t believe it.

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  23. This is as good as it gets Abby. This reminder that “God doesn’t choose the worthy. He chooses the willing.” From a woman who has been feeling unworthy a lot lately, I needed to hear these words today. And be reminded of all of the times He has showed up for me when I faced my own army. You are a blessing and your testimony lived out is a beautiful masterpiece. I love you and I’m so glad you let God work through you on this Sunday and every time you put your words down. xoxo

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    • Meredith, you are one of my biggest cheerleaders and I’m so thankful to have you alongside me in this journey. You BLESS me big, and are faithful to share your beautiful heart. Thank you. xoxo

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  24. I Love this “He will wrap his mighty arms around you and shield you with his grace.”… sometimes we all struggle to step out and in to the call God has on our life. What encouragement it is to know that all He needs is our willingness… and that He is right there to shield us with his grace! Awesome post!
    Thanks for hosting the link up today 🙂

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    • Danise, thank you for your encouragement! Yes, I think we are often quick to doubt when we come face to face with our fears, but he is always there with us when we’re obedient and will not let us fall. So glad you joined us here.

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    • Oh yes, I struggle with anxiety too. Whatever the source, he is in control. Sometimes relinquishing control is the hardest thing, but it truly brings peace and freedom. Thank you so much for your encouragement, friend. I absolutely loved hosting this group of beautiful sisters.

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  25. For one who struggles in many ways with worthiness, I am so blessed by your post. And celebrating with you for sharing your testimony. I hope to one day be in a room to hear you share you heart, Abby. Love you. xoxo

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  26. You know Abby, I haven’t done much writing in my blog lately because of this very reason. Inspired, and thankful to hear others struggles over this same issue. Thank you for providing the link up. It stretches me to reach up to where my help comes from. 🙂 #raralinkup

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  28. Wow! What a great read Abby. I enjoyed reading this. Faith in action always pulls us through because God supplies the courage to move beyond our doubt and into to His will. Thanks for such a wonderful example of your trust in God.

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  29. Abby, what an amazing post and beautiful testimony! GOD doesn’t always call the qualified, but HE always qualifies the called! You are called and qualified, Love and it’s so beautiful to see! 🙂

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  30. Abby that last part reminds me of Hebrews 4:16, “Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.” Thank you for sharing your step of faith. It’s so encouraging to hear how God meets others in these place to store away for the next time my mind’s chatterbox goes off!

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  31. Abby, I could sell the teeshirt for that one…..so strange that after all we’ve been through, we still cringe and want to flee from the doubts, isn’t it? And every single time, God uses our weakness to proclaim His strength to others. The fear and doubts have been especially loud lately, so thank you for sharing your vulnerability and showing me that I’m not the only one.

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  32. Abby, thanks for sharing. God has been growing in me a confident heart, in Him, to do what he has called me to do…still praying about exactly what that is! God bless you ; )

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  33. Thanks for effectively inviting us into your story. Most people hate public speaking so this is easy to relate to. I think God’s choosing goes deeper than our willingness even… think Moses or Jonah.

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  34. The Holy Spirit used your post to spur me on, Abby.
    “We serve a God who reaches out his hand in love and says, “I’ll go with you,” as his Spirit carries us through the fire.”
    I’m holding on to this! Blessings to you.

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